mayfucking30th!

Here's anoother update! Hmm, I didn't really fit everything that happened in the past month so i'ma finish it up here. Um, after the whole break up thing, alot of shit happened! My mainsqz &I got in a fight bout it, and it was just fucking stupid. CHICKS BEFORE DICKS, AYE!? Um, what eelse! Idk! But I'm on fucking lockdown! I haven't been going anywhere the past 5 days! >:O FML! I got grounded on the second day of summer! FML <^><^><^> gbye!

PASTMONTH UPDATE!

TOO MANY THINGS TO TYPE/IDK WHERE TO START! Ahaha, i'ma just start jottin' down random things that happened the past month! Okay, I was at baby harlow's house and sometime that night we met up w/Duran and his friend Kentrell? And idk that wasn't very exciting but I saw my qt, Duran ;) LOLOL! After they left us, we walked to Blake's house, where Jon was staying! HAH, and outta nowhere I had a fucking bad urge to go numero uno! LOL, Erin didn't do much but laugh! But anywho, once we got to Blake's house, he told us we had to climb thru the fucking window in order to spend time w/them cos girhl's aren't allowed in the house -___-" well it was pretty late, so his parents coulda thought we all were doing something else ;) LOL! My shorts got caught when I was getting in and Jon was trying to pull'em up, ahahhaha! It was hilarious! But we had to hide in Blake's closet for like 2 hours (Exaggerating) so we just decided to sneak the boys out of their house and just head to Erin's! So we did, but since Erin wasn't allowed to have Jon& Blake over, we had to go into the backyard and sit in the clubhouse -_-" Jon& Erin were doing their thing ;) and Blake& I were just sitting there, SO AWKWARD! LOL! But Blake and I decided to just got into the house. Then I fucking realized I got an allergic reaction to something! :O My eyes were swollen and shit! My face was really itchy, it was just horrible! But towards the end of the night...ahahhaha i hooked up w/him. ahahhahahaha (=

Hm, me &the guy that promised to not hurt me + i was seeing for a monthish dumped me :( Whatever, lskjdflsjf. I would die if i had to relive that night. I cried myself to sleep for like 4 days. I know, so dramatic! but seriously, i thought we would fight the battle of long distance relationship. I guess not. When he told me and my friends that he wouldn't hurt me, ..I really thought he meant it. I guess not. When he told me that WE would both work on our relationship, I really thought he meant it. I guess not. When he told me he loved me the night before he broke it off, I really thought he meant it. I guess not. At this moment, I know I should've let go. But idk if i have yet =/ I feel stupid, but I just can't do it. I keep thinking he might come back, leaving me waiting. Nothing hurts more than waiting esp. since I don't even know what I'm waiting for anymore.He wonders why I don't talk to him as much anymore and please believe me when I say its not that I don't want to, It's just that everything I want to say to him/you, I can't tell you/him anymore.Whatever, fuck him and fuck this..but anywho next thing..um,school's out. that's okay too, i suppose. I don't want to go back to California and I don't want to stay in Evansville. But there's nowhere else to go. Ugh, FML. I hate this. I want to be anywhere but here. fuck you and you and you! I'm shitty now, cos of my last update about that boy. So I guess here's the end of it. GOOODBYE<3